Carla M. Lee (carlamlee) wrote,
Carla M. Lee

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[writing] Music & Monsters

All my first readers are busy. I knew they would be busy when I sent out chapters, because it's November and between Nano and end of the semester and holidays and everything else, I'm not at all expecting responses anytime soon.

However, I have to share my glee and so I will share it here.

Out of all the writing I've done on this story (31k or so), this is currently my favorite part and every time I read it I am filled with so much joy and glee I bounce in my seat.

A silver gray wolf crouched nearby and my heart stopped. Cold fear sweat slicked under my arms, my breath stuck in my throat, and my hands shook.

Obviously I hadn’t braced myself for anything.

Then the world went blurry or the wolf shimmered or I was going to pass out or I maybe I was dreaming again. Christ, I hoped the last was the truth.

There was a sick, slick tearing sound, and Ben crouched where the wolf had been.

I blinked at him.

“Sandra?” His voice was quiet, gentle in a way it had never been before.

“We’re not at a place in this relationship that involves nudity,” I said. Then I leaned sideways and threw up.

End first act.

I love this story so much. I need to make icons for it.


In other novel news, I've started hearing Rob Thomas's "This is How a Heart Breaks" in my sleep, which means Anna's story is starting to fill my waking thoughts. I'm not ready to rewrite Along the Road Home yet, but once I finish M&M, the next novel project may be finishing Werewolves in Love, which is at least set in Anna's world.

Sadly, I don't have "This is How a Heart Breaks" in any form but a fanvid, so I can't put it on my iPod and listen to it obsessively on the plane Wednesday.

ETA: Hilariously, my other big Anna song right now is The Flobots' "Handlebars" because she is totally going to end the world (while breaking hearts) and I also don't have that one except in fanvid form. I really need to buy some music soon.

ETA2: Actually, as I'm listening to "Handlebars" again, I am reminded that eventually I want to talk about being the hero of your own story and how that's not necessarily true and the ways I tell these stories where people aren't the heroes of their own stories, etc., but also the way in which characters who start out being in control end up not in control. That's a trope I keep exploring, gaining and losing and regaining power and control. So while "Handlebars" is an Anna song in my head, it's not actually about Anna in that she's not the one ultimately in control of the end of the world. She's the weapon causing it, in many ways, but there is something else ultimately in control. This is why I need to talk to Sarah more, because she already knows the bare bones of Anna's story as well as many of the tiny details and so I can say things like, oh, Anna's the weapon, and she knows what I mean. That or I need to spend more time talking about these things with other people so they get the shortcut references, too.

ETA3: I swear I will totally shut up soon because I am going to bed. (I did not start out today manic but I may have had a moodswing at some point, because this is starting to feel like mania. Or maybe it is simply excitement over seeing my family Wednesday.) While driving to chr0me_kitten's place tonight, I decided I need to make an icon that addresses another Carla trope, which is a) artistic people are hot but mostly b) Anna really has this type: artistic, unnaturally colored hair, queer, and short, in that in many ways, Taz and Jez are THE SAME PERSON except, you know, not. Which leads to some interesting stuff about physical types versus mental types and how people grow on us, etc. but man, Jez and Taz? Practically the same person and Anna totally doesn't see it. Which is hilarious, because later in life there's this whole which of things doesn't belong attraction to someone else which ends up being really important to her ability to end the world.

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